somber

and i think the most difficult thing is to look in the mirror. to open your eyes, look into yourself, and simply accept what you see.
and people come and people go. and some people come back. and then you wonder where they were the whole time. but still others appear that you think were with you the whole time.
and along with this abstract thought of reality, you can always think of the obvious, you are alone.
you will always be alone.
when you are born, when you shit, and when you die.
alone.
but needless to say others will fulfill your life, some will clutter it and some will enrich it.
dont you miss your childhood?
as the years tack on and the same fuckhead president is "re-elected".

and sacha said i've gotten more depressed since we broke up. what does that mean?
is it true? or was i so jaded when i was with her that i didnt realize i could get depressed?
i doubt it, i was often depressed with her as well.
im just pmsing.
thats my excuse. i use that excuse three weeks before my period.
wow.
and i told you all that i needed therapy. but there are happy days, they just dont appear the day before i get my period on a really shitty rainy day.
and. my parents are here. but they are at a broadway play so i think im going to go out for a drink then meet them for dinner, even though im eating reeses puffs cereal and a glass of wine right now.
these blogs are so self fulfilling.
i love you all