dont hate the straight

so recently i've been put in a strange place.
i have been having these interesting encounters with transmen. and i cant quite figure it out.
these encounters have caused me to question my own sexual identity.
and i sometimes wonder, those nights that i contemplate men in general, the percentage of straight in me.

then on the complete flip side, there is the fact that i always seem to fall for the straight girl.
i mean, after the last straight girl in my life i thought i'd be done...
pain in the ass when you're with a straight girl for several months then she gets engaged to a man, because she was straight the whole time.
well, maybe im a masochist, but i think im doing it again.
i cant get enough of this straight girl, like not enough.
and it kills me every time i look at her, cuz i realize the reality of it all, that i am not supposed to be with straight girls because, well, because they are straight.
no matter how much they try to convince you that they really want to be with women...its a lie.

its fun to date a girl, to kiss a girl, especially in front of your boyfriend if you're in to that sort of thing.
but the thing is, the thing that these straight girls who "like" women dont get...

is that we, us, queers, gays, homos, fags, dykes, trannies...
we live this shit, and we face the world each day with our dykie hair and our butch walk and everything short of a giant sign that reads LESBO.

but i think the best part about my existance is that i am completely free from so many restraints in society. i am already regarded a particular way and with that i am given freedom to do as i choose.

so today my stupid ass chooses to be infatuated with yet another straight girl.
but OMIGOD she's fucking HOT.