understand

here's a somber moment:

so occaisionally i'll become overwhelmed with a thought, and it honestly captures my whole being.
like i've been transported to a memory
or a future.
but im gone.
and it really gets me, emotionally, physically, mentally.
i explore thoughts and ineterests that i maybe never took the time to rememer.
and to remember
do you remember the most unmemorable moments
but for some reason, they become memorable.
i remember the parking lot of the JCC where i used to go to school before i moved to los gatos.
i was always a trouble maker and a bit of a tomboy i might add
so i would play in the tanbark playground,
on the swings, in the little suspended house supported by redwood poles.
on the monkey bars,
upside down.

anyways, i would play football too
sometimes
and sometimes
being, like 5 or 6,
the ball would get thrown into the parking lot to the left of us.

so i went to get it,
and it was hot
like northern california spring time
hot

and as i was getting the ball from between some early 80's oldsmobiles and cheverolet's,
one of them started.
and i was startled.

but i was 5,
or 6

thats my story.