queer people

so i might recall a time when i heard this phrase and had no idea what it implied, or what it even meant.
but i find lately my life to consist of everything queer.
and its strange
because i never imagined my life to be so gay.
i mean really, i had never really lived a super gay lifestyle....i guess till now. i guess once i became a lesbian super star dj at the hottest tuesday night club in new york city!!!!!!! haha ya right.

i think i always viewd the gay lifestyle from some outside window where the fog from my breath would cloud the glass...
but now i sometimes forget that there might be an actual thing going on and all im doing is my daily.

so i wonder if the memories that lay in my head truly existed as some fantastical place that i could always imagine but never quite reach, or
if the memories represent some anticipation, some deception of where your life will evolve.



um. are lesbians supposed to have condomns?