frust ray shun : contented
my weekend, tho long and relatively relaxing, still came with frustration.
it started a bit early because i missed an important class and a class i can believe im forced to take.
i attended class at 2pm with my wifey. i spent the entire night before awake for some reason and therefore had to sleep until 11 instead of 7am.
i think the frustration began on friday. i dont think it was the best idea for me to pretend that my relationship is in any way relaxed or remotely the same with my ex-girlfriend. on its surface, our time toghether was fine. it was civil and actually enjoyable. in retrospect, i find that it produced nothing of value, except that i got to see her mom...someone i miss fo sho. At this point, i feel like i've grown in so many ways and it sometimes amazes me that i was ever with my ex. i think this observation is further underlined by my current relationship.
HONESTLY, i am awed by the substantial quality of my current relationship. it is built of truth, passion, genuine love and care, honesty, and voluntary persistance. we are both in it for the same reasons, with the same motivations, and with similar anticipation of our future. it has gotten to the point that i rarely speculate the details of the relationship because it is just "ok". what i mean is, it causes me no worries, no concerns, only anticipation and satisfaction.
anyways, enough about my bullshit. yesterday was nicco's birthday bbq at lily's house in BK. PIMP ass brownstone with a beautiful garden in the back. great weather and even better company. yesterday was fun because we all got high at little's house and created our gifts for nicco. lots of construction paper and crayons and creativity. tina g makes me laugh hysterically ALL the time. good times good people good labor day.
back to the grind, looking for apts, trying to move *snapshot*, studying as much as i can.
HOLLA
it started a bit early because i missed an important class and a class i can believe im forced to take.
i attended class at 2pm with my wifey. i spent the entire night before awake for some reason and therefore had to sleep until 11 instead of 7am.
i think the frustration began on friday. i dont think it was the best idea for me to pretend that my relationship is in any way relaxed or remotely the same with my ex-girlfriend. on its surface, our time toghether was fine. it was civil and actually enjoyable. in retrospect, i find that it produced nothing of value, except that i got to see her mom...someone i miss fo sho. At this point, i feel like i've grown in so many ways and it sometimes amazes me that i was ever with my ex. i think this observation is further underlined by my current relationship.
HONESTLY, i am awed by the substantial quality of my current relationship. it is built of truth, passion, genuine love and care, honesty, and voluntary persistance. we are both in it for the same reasons, with the same motivations, and with similar anticipation of our future. it has gotten to the point that i rarely speculate the details of the relationship because it is just "ok". what i mean is, it causes me no worries, no concerns, only anticipation and satisfaction.
anyways, enough about my bullshit. yesterday was nicco's birthday bbq at lily's house in BK. PIMP ass brownstone with a beautiful garden in the back. great weather and even better company. yesterday was fun because we all got high at little's house and created our gifts for nicco. lots of construction paper and crayons and creativity. tina g makes me laugh hysterically ALL the time. good times good people good labor day.
back to the grind, looking for apts, trying to move *snapshot*, studying as much as i can.
HOLLA
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