searching

i have a lot more to say on this issue, but for now i'll simply put it at this

in the midst of my 26th year, likening myself to my mother who gave birth to me at the same age, and contrasting myself against those around me, older, younger, smarter, stronger, slower, simpler...
im afraid that i've been parading
around as though i truly believe my cause,
as if i ever had one at all

cuz i think i formed one, maybe just to form one
kind of like how i went to law school just to go

and im starting to dislike myself,
so i'll delve further when i have a moment.