birth
as the day grows nearer
i wish to regress
back to the days i first fell in love so deep i drowned in it
when i was first excited about a graduate education and the possibilities of a future
when i was so careless my creativity sprung like leaks from a punctured hose
when i was free to move about the country and the world as if i had no anchor
when i dug deep and found out who i truly was amidst the confusion and growing up
when i experienced so many things for the first time
when i grew to make decisions on my own
when i was john
when i was nurtured and looked after
when i was the joy and happiness brought to a loving family
when i was in the womb, so warm and comforting
--
alas, these days move forward, often seemingly at the speed of light.
as i try to hold on, fingers tightly gripping the safety bars, i see only the things that truly matter.
I see that the fun times and the excitement and the "living" i once yearned for so bad, all these things are not what they seem. and all these things are nothing in light of the brightness that emanates from the true value of life and love.
family, compassion, generosity, love, comfort, trust.
as time seems to win the race against me, these are what i hold on to. these are what make me whole
without them, i am empty.
i wish to regress
back to the days i first fell in love so deep i drowned in it
when i was first excited about a graduate education and the possibilities of a future
when i was so careless my creativity sprung like leaks from a punctured hose
when i was free to move about the country and the world as if i had no anchor
when i dug deep and found out who i truly was amidst the confusion and growing up
when i experienced so many things for the first time
when i grew to make decisions on my own
when i was john
when i was nurtured and looked after
when i was the joy and happiness brought to a loving family
when i was in the womb, so warm and comforting
--
alas, these days move forward, often seemingly at the speed of light.
as i try to hold on, fingers tightly gripping the safety bars, i see only the things that truly matter.
I see that the fun times and the excitement and the "living" i once yearned for so bad, all these things are not what they seem. and all these things are nothing in light of the brightness that emanates from the true value of life and love.
family, compassion, generosity, love, comfort, trust.
as time seems to win the race against me, these are what i hold on to. these are what make me whole
without them, i am empty.
